Equality

How you treat me is how i will treat you.

Random thoughts

These are some random thoughts about what i am feeling now and also what i learnt from my 'talk,listen,share' session.

Should i rewind the time or should i fast forward?
I just don't like being in this situation now.
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I enjoy when i have the privacy to talk things out.
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I am also not sure whether you should understand or i should understand.
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I just want to be happy.
But why is there always something that has to ruin it?
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Don't care what you are going to do.
I am not going to be bothered.
I won't be affected.
I am going to stay focused.
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Learn things how you are born to learn them.
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THAT is what differentiates the good and the okay ones.

What i feel will be a memory when i am older..but what i learnt will be remembered so that i can at least be a slightly better person.RIGHT? =)

Feeling

First time after so long i did that...

Dedicated to you

I found this essay which i wrote when i was in Form 5 about someone who really made an impact in my life..and thought that today is a very good day to share it.

The first time i met him was when i was around 10 years old.A family friend,Uncle John brought my siblings and me over to his house.I can still remember vividly that his house is painted pure white and there was a fish pond in front.We were there to watch Jurassic Park,the famous movie about dinosaurs chasing after people.But,unfortunately,he was in a hurry to go out so we didn't manage to watch.

A year of two later,Uncle John thought that i have some musical sense in me.He told mummy about it and they both agreed that i start taking up music lessons,piano lessons to be precise.He recommended that i take lessons from this teacher staying in the same 'taman'.He said that this teacher is a good teacher and very talented.That is how i ended up going for piano lessons.

* Think you all should know who i am talking about =) *

On my first day of lesson,i remember feeling so scared and nervous.I was my first time going for such lessons and i didn't know what to expect.With all those feelings,i didn't realise that the teacher was actually someone whom i have met,that short encounter a few years back.I may have forgotten but he didn't.

Lesson on the first day was okay with me being a little shy and quiet.But it all changed after a few lessons (You should ask him).I was no longer the shy or quiet one.I could be myself and enjoy my every lesson.From then on,he was more than just my teacher,he was also my friend and a good one too.

During the few years of lessons,i had so much FUN.Of course there is the usual playing and theory..but there was also other things that we did.We would talk about 'interesting' happenings..feed the fishes in the pond..look at car magazines and asking him to buy this car and that car (I no longer want a limo now,more interested in the cute,little BEETLE)..playing PALM games,see who scores higher or who can play longer..shooting bb gun..admiring the bowling balls he has (I still like the apple one)..asking him to renovate his house to make it look like the ones in the magazine especially the pond..So many things that we did besides the usual lesson.A that is how we got to know each other better.

I remember sometimes going to lessons feeling moody and stressed up because of school and tuitions.I can't skip lesson just because i am not in the mood so i try to hide what i feel by being quiet and just do what i am told.He somehow realises it and tries to cheer me up by being extra talkative or funny.He knows that i like to talk so when he does that,i will eventually talk and feel better.And it never fails.

There are times when i complain and complain about how my friends are and about how the people around me behave and treat me.He will just smile and say that it takes all kinds of people to make a world,a happier and more interesting one too.That saying made me look at things more differently and to not be so easily affected by the little things that people may do.

As you all know,to be good in piano,one has to practise the piano and do their theory.Well,i am not one of them.I always either don't practise or practise not enough.I only study for my theory when the exams are coming.I was a bad and 'challenging' student.Most teachers would have kicked me out of their classes (That is what he always tell me),but he didn't.He not only didn't give up on me but he was always there,pushing me from behind,encouraging me and sometimes forcing me too.I know it was for my own good.He always tell me that 'Practise makes perfect'.And that is how i managed to pass all my exams.

My acquaintance with him has inspired me in many ways.He makes me want to be like him,being able to play the piano and express himself so well in songs (There was one Korean song which he played SO WELL that it made me practise and practise cos i wanted so badly to be able to play like him.I didn't tell him that though.HAHA!).He makes me want to be as determined as him,working hard to achieve the target no matter how high it is.He makes me want to be as successful as him,in career and also in life.

* For those who still do not know who i am talking about,then i shall describe him a little more *

He used to live in the same 'taman' as me but has now moved to KL.His hobby used to be playing golf when it is sunny and bowling when it's raining.He always compare himself with Garfield;fat,lazy and always hungry (I didn't and still don't see any similarity).He is generous,kind and always ready to lend a helping hand.He is sociable,friendly and..at times childish too,but it is this nature which makes him such a good teacher and companion.And like Uncle John said,he is a really nice teacher and very talented (Wish i can have 10% of his talent).

* If you still don't know who i am talking about then you should know after this... *

This is who he is,doing what he does best.

Thank you so much for what you have done.
You have inspired me in so many ways,directly and indirectly.
I am really blessed to have known you,
And happy that you have been a part of my life.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
UNCLE JIT SAN...
Hope that all your wishes and dreams will come.

*I edited a little since i didn't get full marks for this essay.But it is still not good,a little choppy here and there.Sigh..*

Sorry

It is so horrible when i have to say 'NO' to going out when in deep down in my heart i really want to.That is one of the reasons why i hate exams especially the one month study period.

*I AM SORRY*

Dance

It has been awhile since i wrote about my dance class.Don't be mistaken that i didn't write means i skipped class,i didn't.I went but then was too busy to blog about it and nothing new.

Dance class now is getting tougher.Everything has to be MORE.The hips and the shoulders and the hands.Argh...so DIFFICULT!

Today,i was told by the sir to be not so stiff,to be softer.But when i was soft,he said i was like jelly.What he wants is...movement like rubber.Soft but has the elasticity.*Sigh...* Muscles oh muscles in my body,when can you be like rubber?

The next thing is to accentuate my movements,make them prominent and obvious.Sounds easy right?If he wants you to move to the left,move more and if he wants the hips out,then make them go out more.BUT...try doing all that on heels.It really limits the extend one can go.Only pros can do them and i am definitely not one.Solution..i think i have to get lower heels which means... *$$$$$*

But...no matter what,i will not give up.I already know what he means,just have to get my body to execute them.

Coffee!

I LIKE COFFEE..
Craze started recently.
But i can only have the black ones.
The rest makes me dizzy.
=(
Lots of it is bad for health,
But a little sometimes is okay right?

*Miss drinking coffee with my cousin and sister*

Random

Going to have my exams in less than a month and yet i am so RELAXED.Don't know what is wrong with me and where my focus and stress went.It is good in one way,but then it is also bad cos there is no motivation for me to study.

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I can't wait for my SHORT holidays to start.There are so many things i am looking forward to.Can't wait,can't wait,CAN'T WAIT!!

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Where do you think i should continue studying?Penang or KL?I like Penang because it is convenient but i also like KL cos it will be a new experience.How?Where to go?

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Will i be able to watch the meteor shower? *Continues waiting although i am SO BORED*

MAD!

So,so,so,so,so....SO MAD!

Mummy's birthday (Part 2)

This one is about how cheeky my granny was..She wanted to give an angpow to mummy and told me about it.Then,sis suggested that we give her a fake one first before the real one.

Various ideas for the fake one..only a few ringgit or a hand-made gift voucher or just a paper asking her to claim from granny or a fake cheque.

We ended up with a fake cheque.I drew and copied to the very exact (i try to).Then,put it into the angpow.Granny,walked to mummy and gave her with a serious face (she tried VERY HARD to) and then we insisted that mummy opens it.When she did,everyone burst into laughter.It didn't occur to her that granny will 'surprise' her too and the funniest part was...that the fake cheque was drawn on a piece of receipt *LOL!*


After that,granny came out of the room with another angpow and said..."Oh,sorry sorry..I took the wrong angpow for you...".Mummy was hesistant but in the end she did open it and knew that it was a real one.

Everyone had a good laugh and was in tears at the end of the surprise session.Laughter is the best medicine so i guess it is okay to have such surprises,right?