Equality

How you treat me is how i will treat you.

Random thoughts

These are some random thoughts about what i am feeling now and also what i learnt from my 'talk,listen,share' session.

Should i rewind the time or should i fast forward?
I just don't like being in this situation now.
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I enjoy when i have the privacy to talk things out.
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I am also not sure whether you should understand or i should understand.
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I just want to be happy.
But why is there always something that has to ruin it?
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Don't care what you are going to do.
I am not going to be bothered.
I won't be affected.
I am going to stay focused.
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Learn things how you are born to learn them.
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THAT is what differentiates the good and the okay ones.

What i feel will be a memory when i am older..but what i learnt will be remembered so that i can at least be a slightly better person.RIGHT? =)

Feeling

First time after so long i did that...

Dedicated to you

I found this essay which i wrote when i was in Form 5 about someone who really made an impact in my life..and thought that today is a very good day to share it.

The first time i met him was when i was around 10 years old.A family friend,Uncle John brought my siblings and me over to his house.I can still remember vividly that his house is painted pure white and there was a fish pond in front.We were there to watch Jurassic Park,the famous movie about dinosaurs chasing after people.But,unfortunately,he was in a hurry to go out so we didn't manage to watch.

A year of two later,Uncle John thought that i have some musical sense in me.He told mummy about it and they both agreed that i start taking up music lessons,piano lessons to be precise.He recommended that i take lessons from this teacher staying in the same 'taman'.He said that this teacher is a good teacher and very talented.That is how i ended up going for piano lessons.

* Think you all should know who i am talking about =) *

On my first day of lesson,i remember feeling so scared and nervous.I was my first time going for such lessons and i didn't know what to expect.With all those feelings,i didn't realise that the teacher was actually someone whom i have met,that short encounter a few years back.I may have forgotten but he didn't.

Lesson on the first day was okay with me being a little shy and quiet.But it all changed after a few lessons (You should ask him).I was no longer the shy or quiet one.I could be myself and enjoy my every lesson.From then on,he was more than just my teacher,he was also my friend and a good one too.

During the few years of lessons,i had so much FUN.Of course there is the usual playing and theory..but there was also other things that we did.We would talk about 'interesting' happenings..feed the fishes in the pond..look at car magazines and asking him to buy this car and that car (I no longer want a limo now,more interested in the cute,little BEETLE)..playing PALM games,see who scores higher or who can play longer..shooting bb gun..admiring the bowling balls he has (I still like the apple one)..asking him to renovate his house to make it look like the ones in the magazine especially the pond..So many things that we did besides the usual lesson.And that is how we got to know each other better.

I remember sometimes going to lessons feeling moody and stressed up because of school and tuitions.I can't skip lesson just because i am not in the mood so i try to hide what i feel by being quiet and just do what i am told.He somehow realises it and tries to cheer me up by being extra talkative or funny.He knows that i like to talk so when he does that,i will eventually talk and feel better.And it never fails.

There are times when i complain and complain about how my friends are and about how the people around me behave and treat me.He will just smile and say that it takes all kinds of people to make a world,a happier and more interesting one too.That saying made me look at things more differently and to not be so easily affected by the little things that people may do.

As you all know,to be good in piano,one has to practise the piano and do their theory.Well,i am not one of them.I always either don't practise or practise not enough.I only study for my theory when the exams are coming.I was a bad and 'challenging' student.Most teachers would have kicked me out of their classes (That is what he always tell me),but he didn't.He not only didn't give up on me but he was always there,pushing me from behind,encouraging me and sometimes forcing me too.I know it was for my own good.He always tell me that 'Practise makes perfect'.And that is how i managed to pass all my exams.

My acquaintance with him has inspired me in many ways.He makes me want to be like him,being able to play the piano and express himself so well in songs (There was one Korean song which he played SO WELL that it made me practise and practise cos i wanted so badly to be able to play like him.I didn't tell him that though.HAHA!).He makes me want to be as determined as him,working hard to achieve the target no matter how high it is.He makes me want to be as successful as him,in career and also in life.

* For those who still do not know who i am talking about,then i shall describe him a little more *

He used to live in the same 'taman' as me but has now moved to KL.His hobby used to be playing golf when it is sunny and bowling when it's raining.He always compare himself with Garfield;fat,lazy and always hungry (I didn't and still don't see any similarity).He is generous,kind and always ready to lend a helping hand.He is sociable,friendly and..at times childish too,but it is this nature which makes him such a good teacher and companion.And like Uncle John said,he is a really nice teacher and very talented (Wish i can have 10% of his talent).

* If you still don't know who i am talking about then you should know after this... *

This is who he is,doing what he does best.

Thank you so much for what you have done.
You have inspired me in so many ways,directly and indirectly.
I am really blessed to have known you,
And happy that you have been a part of my life.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
UNCLE JIT SAN...
Hope that all your wishes and dreams will come.

*I edited a little since i didn't get full marks for this essay.But it is still not good,a little choppy here and there.Sigh..*

Sorry

It is so horrible when i have to say 'NO' to going out when in deep down in my heart i really want to.That is one of the reasons why i hate exams especially the one month study period.

*I AM SORRY*

Dance

It has been awhile since i wrote about my dance class.Don't be mistaken that i didn't write means i skipped class,i didn't.I went but then was too busy to blog about it and nothing new.

Dance class now is getting tougher.Everything has to be MORE.The hips and the shoulders and the hands.Argh...so DIFFICULT!

Today,i was told by the sir to be not so stiff,to be softer.But when i was soft,he said i was like jelly.What he wants is...movement like rubber.Soft but has the elasticity.*Sigh...* Muscles oh muscles in my body,when can you be like rubber?

The next thing is to accentuate my movements,make them prominent and obvious.Sounds easy right?If he wants you to move to the left,move more and if he wants the hips out,then make them go out more.BUT...try doing all that on heels.It really limits the extend one can go.Only pros can do them and i am definitely not one.Solution..i think i have to get lower heels which means... *$$$$$*

But...no matter what,i will not give up.I already know what he means,just have to get my body to execute them.

Coffee!

I LIKE COFFEE..
Craze started recently.
But i can only have the black ones.
The rest makes me dizzy.
=(
Lots of it is bad for health,
But a little sometimes is okay right?

*Miss drinking coffee with my cousin and sister*

Random

Going to have my exams in less than a month and yet i am so RELAXED.Don't know what is wrong with me and where my focus and stress went.It is good in one way,but then it is also bad cos there is no motivation for me to study.

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I can't wait for my SHORT holidays to start.There are so many things i am looking forward to.Can't wait,can't wait,CAN'T WAIT!!

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Where do you think i should continue studying?Penang or KL?I like Penang because it is convenient but i also like KL cos it will be a new experience.How?Where to go?

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Will i be able to watch the meteor shower? *Continues waiting although i am SO BORED*

MAD!

So,so,so,so,so....SO MAD!

Mummy's birthday (Part 2)

This one is about how cheeky my granny was..She wanted to give an angpow to mummy and told me about it.Then,sis suggested that we give her a fake one first before the real one.

Various ideas for the fake one..only a few ringgit or a hand-made gift voucher or just a paper asking her to claim from granny or a fake cheque.

We ended up with a fake cheque.I drew and copied to the very exact (i try to).Then,put it into the angpow.Granny,walked to mummy and gave her with a serious face (she tried VERY HARD to) and then we insisted that mummy opens it.When she did,everyone burst into laughter.It didn't occur to her that granny will 'surprise' her too and the funniest part was...that the fake cheque was drawn on a piece of receipt *LOL!*


After that,granny came out of the room with another angpow and said..."Oh,sorry sorry..I took the wrong angpow for you...".Mummy was hesistant but in the end she did open it and knew that it was a real one.

Everyone had a good laugh and was in tears at the end of the surprise session.Laughter is the best medicine so i guess it is okay to have such surprises,right?

Mummy's birthday (Part 1)

This year...we (siblings and me) decided to be cheeky.Instead of always giving her the usual surprise,nice present wrapped in nice wrapping paper,we went for the other way round.

1am on the 8th of November,she was tired after spending a few hours watching the tv and was already in bed when we wanted to 'surprise' her.Siblings insisted on doing it though she was supposedly asleep.Went into her room with her 'present'.We wished her happy birthday and sis gave her the present.Without opening her eyes,she just hugged it and told us what a nice bolster.Then,we persuaded her to get up and open her present.That was when she realised that we wrapped her present in newspaper and there was a MJ picture with his 'autograph'.Everyone had a good laugh cos we gave reason that we ran out of wrapping paper.Then,she opened it.The next thing she noticed was the box we used was a recycled box,mooncake box.Another round of laughter from her and granny especially.Then..when she finally saw the present,everyone was practically in tears,from laughing too much.No one expected us (her cheeky children) to gather new items found at home and wrapped it up for her.In the box was....a box of drink,first aid kit,skipping rope,toothbrush,wet tissue and bath scrub sponge thing.


Bro's act came next.Because mummy was in tears,he said...'You are not happy with your present?We didn't have time to go and buy anything cos you were always at home and we had no time to sneak out to buy.That's why we got you this.You are not happy?Ok lo..i shall go and find another present for you."And he walked out of the room looking =(

Few minutes later,he came back with another present.Before mummy can even open it,she was laughing again (I shall use *HAHAHA!* as laugh,lazy to type so many times).The second present was wrapped in newspaper as well and with MJ's photo.She opened it and another mooncake box *HAHAHA!* The inside,was a lot of newspaper balls and at the bottom of the box..was an eyebrow pencil (we bought for her from KL,but then she gave hers to granny and asked us to get her another one).So,we sort of 'recycled' the present but in another way.

That was the end for that night...

Then,finally her real present was on the night after we came back from dinner.The third present was given and it was in..yap,you can guess it by now..newspaper and MJ..*HAHAHA!* and she was a little hesistant to open it cos she said we will give her rubbish again.But when she finally did open,she was glad that it was no longer rubbish (I think that is what she felt).

I hope that she likes all her presents and especially those surprises.Next year will be tougher...

*(Part 2 - Granny's surprise) and (Part 3 - The dinner) will be coming soon...

Happy day

Today is a good and happy day.

After a long day,everyone gathered around the TV (a.k.a. the idiot box but not to us) and enjoyed a few episodes of The Little Nyonya.There were tears,laughter and not forgetting discussion about it too during the few hours we spent.To some people,they may think that it is a waste of time but to us,it is a time for family to be together,enjoy each others company and forget about all the worries,problems and stress.

How i missed those time when we were all so into dramas.Everyday after coming back from school,everyone will rush to the tv to catch the drama.That will be one of our topic of discussion.You may think,why bother about the silly drama and spend the time discussing it,but then...indirectly,it brought us closer together as a family.And through watching and discussing,we all get to know how each of us think besides learning valuable lessons in life.Certain things are better to learn from watching then to let them happen to us,right?So..that's how I learnt some lessons in life.

Okay...besides the Nyonya gathering session,my siblings and I came up with a surprise for mummy.Was so glad that it went well and everyone had a good laugh.I will blog about it another time when i am free.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,
MY DEAREST MUMMY.
YOU ARE THE BEST MUMMY EVER.
NO ONE WHO CAN REPLACE YOU IN MY HEART.
I LOVE YOU...
*MUACKS!!!*

Currently

Forcing myself to study
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Watching 'Little Nyonya'

Ning,what you said is so true.The movie is very addictive,so difficult to get away from the TV once start playing it.Now i understand how your mum can stay awake till so late =)