Committed

The person whom you choose to marry

is perhaps the single most vivid representation of your personality.

Your spouse becomes the most gleaming possible mirror

through which your emotional individualism is reflected back to the world.

....that choice tells us,to a large extent,who you are.

~ Elizabeth Gilbert~

Glad

Back together.

Happy that everything is solved.

And hopes that it will last.

Answer

I wish i can see the future,

then i won't be so uncertain now.

I wish i know the answer,

then i won't waste your time.

HEADACHE!

A break

A break is what i need.

I think.

I feel.

But i am not sure.

This word

What is..

'LOVE' ?

I thought i know what this word means..but only to realise that i actually don't.

It always seem so easy to tell whether other people are in love or not but why when it comes to ourselves,it is not as easy?

Is it possible for friends to become lovers?Is it possible for love to start growing from nil?

Why is it that there are people who can ignore the inner beauty and just judge from the outer?Is that ALL that matters?No wonder there are girls who go for plastic surgery.

Just hope that i can clear this mess in my head and heart and get it sorted out.Don't want it to bother me for my exam which is coming SOON.I am NOT going to allow myself to fail again.NOT NOT NOT...

Masak-masak

I don't know if you girls played this game before but as a kid,i surely did.Sometimes it would be with my sister only and sometimes it would involve my brother and cousins (boys) as well.The boys usually are there to ruin the things that we have collected.At home,in the garden,we would gather grass,flowers and little berry like fruits.If we were at my grandparent's house,then it would be more fun cos there are actual fruits and more types of flowers.These will be our 'ingredients'.Using little colourful,plastic cooking utensils,we would chop up those things,'grate' them to produce juice (i remember plucking little guavas,grating them and got green paste),squeezing flowers in the water to get the colours out and 'cook' them in our pot or pan into imaginary food.

But now,as i grow,my little utensils have grown too.No longer are they plastic and colourful.No longer are those ingredients plucked from the garden.No longer are they imaginary food.

Study life have brought my sister and me to KL,to see the world and learn to be more independent.And one of the things that we had to do is cook.Our used-to-be a game now is a reality.It started off with a small rice cooker and a water boiler.With that,we cooked rice and instant noodles (that's for sure) and noodle soup,(fried and boiled) egg sandwiches,baked beans,steamed veg

etables,french toast...

But we were not satisfied as there are many things that can't be done with the rice cooker and also it takes a long time to cook a meal.So,we extended our little kitchen corner by getting a pot and also a portable stove.With these two,we are now able to practically cook anything we want.The meal that tasted the best out of our kitchen was the nasi lemak.I invited a friend over for dinner and my sister and him took second helping though there wasn't enough sambal and fried chicken left.He even asked us to cook it again.That's a real compliment especially for my sister and me who don't really cook when we are at home.

These are a few photos of my little kitchen,the process of cooking and also the end results.

Hoping to try out more new recipes and impress my parents when we are back at home =) (But have to remember to spend some time to study too cos cooking won't help me pass my exams and coming to KL is to study,not learn how to cook)

Double dose of failure

Yesterday was a really horrible day,the worst day in my study life.Hate it yet i expected it.Just didn't know that it will become a reality.Why oh why...??

ACCA should seriously do something about their website or IT system.I opted to receive my results via email and that didn't come till today.So,i was sitting in front of my laptop for almost 7 hours (from the time i started to prepare lunch,had lunch till after dinner) clicking on the reload button and keep trying 'new' ways to access the site.

The exam results..like i said,somewhat i expected it though deep inside me,i was still hoping for a tiny miracle to happen.But when i asked myself,which paper should it be (not wanting to be greedy so was just hoping for one) i could not even decide.Both the papers i felt that i didn't do well.Maybe,that's why miracle didn't happen and therefore the..

DOUBLE dose of FAILURE

I hope that after this i will regain my motivation to study for maybe find a new drive to work harder because previously it has been almost nil momentum and concentration.Wishing that this semester will be a better one and that everything will go smoothly,starting from the decision about my classes).

2 hours to go

I have 2 more hours before i know my results for the exam i took in December.I don't feel as nervous as previously but i also don't have that much confidence in myself to believe that i will pass.So,will just sit here and wait for the time to come,check it,see how i did and plan what papers i should be taking.Hope that i PASS the TWO papers..

*Keeping my fingers crossed*

PS: My blog is a little dead these days cos I have to use and share the broadband with my sister.It has limited usage and the line is not that stable.

First week of lectures

Today is Friday!Finally coming to the end of the first week.

It was okay for the first week.Orientation was a little waste of time and pressuring cos the management kept on mentioning 'passing rate','success','work hard' and 'platinum status'..Though it is stressful to hear all those,in a way it is kind of good for someone like me who lost my motivation last semester.It made me feel determined to pass my exams and to work hard in order for this semester to be my last one.

Besides orientation is the lectures.They were all smooth-going.I managed to find out where all the lectures were held and can quite understand what the lecturers were saying.That is something good cos my last semester i was always lost and trying to find my way out of the puzzle.This is where i find Sunway to be better.They acknowledge the fact that there are new students and therefore,don't always refer to the notes they previously gave or use terms which new students won't know.But what's not nice is that the lecturers have already asked us to start revising after each lecture.I know that it is THE WAY,but i am always so tired after lectures.My brain feels like it has absorbed SO MUCH and i should just sleep to 'save' what i learned.

So,that's a little about how my study life is currently.

Dance...stopped for the moment cos it is TOO EXPENSIVE to learn it here.So shall just wait till i have the time when i am back in AS to continue.

Sleep...i have been sleeping so EARLY these days.Really not like the AS me where 12am is still early.Here,10pm is already late.But it's good,at least no more looking like a panda (even though i love them).

The big city

Ah!
I am finally in KL.Sis and me have been thinking about coming here to study for quite some time and now we are really staying here.We didn't imagine it to be as difficult as in Penang.

Even though previously i was in UKM for 6months,it was still SO TERRIBLY HARD for me to adjust to life here.After gotten used to study life in Penang and most of the time,staying at home,the sudden change and the need to be independent is terrifying.What more,i have to also 'look after' my sister.Luckily,i have friends here whom i can call and ask for help.I do hope that i will be able to adapt to this life quickly so that before i know it,it is already time to go home and i can re-decide where i want to be next.

As for my sis,it is her first time being so far away from home and having to be independent.Definitely,it is tough on her but i hope that she will be able to overcome it and try to look on the brighter side.There is nothing we can do about it until we are done with the 4months here.

My goal: Concentrate on class so that time will pass faster and then it is time to pack up and GO HOME! (I am 100% going to reconsider whether to work in KL.Maybe Penang is far enough for someone like me who loves my home so much)