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Almost the same situation,

Happened twice.

How is that possible?

Didn't i learn my lesson after the first time?

Why torture me twice?

Why test me twice?

Now wondering if there will be a third...

Feelings

What you say and what you do is NOT the same.

Happy YET unhappy.

One less thing to think about.

If it's not meant to be yours,it will NEVER be yours.

When it's beyond your control,then just let it be.

Ahh...Just stop all these nonsense and get back to my books.All the other things will not ensure that i pass my exams,secure myself a job and start earning $$$.

My darling doggies,please don't let me have a heart attack when i open my eyes in the morning.

Committed

The person whom you choose to marry

is perhaps the single most vivid representation of your personality.

Your spouse becomes the most gleaming possible mirror

through which your emotional individualism is reflected back to the world.

....that choice tells us,to a large extent,who you are.

~ Elizabeth Gilbert~

Glad

Back together.

Happy that everything is solved.

And hopes that it will last.

Answer

I wish i can see the future,

then i won't be so uncertain now.

I wish i know the answer,

then i won't waste your time.

HEADACHE!

A break

A break is what i need.

I think.

I feel.

But i am not sure.

This word

What is..

'LOVE' ?

I thought i know what this word means..but only to realise that i actually don't.

It always seem so easy to tell whether other people are in love or not but why when it comes to ourselves,it is not as easy?

Is it possible for friends to become lovers?Is it possible for love to start growing from nil?

Why is it that there are people who can ignore the inner beauty and just judge from the outer?Is that ALL that matters?No wonder there are girls who go for plastic surgery.

Just hope that i can clear this mess in my head and heart and get it sorted out.Don't want it to bother me for my exam which is coming SOON.I am NOT going to allow myself to fail again.NOT NOT NOT...

Masak-masak

I don't know if you girls played this game before but as a kid,i surely did.Sometimes it would be with my sister only and sometimes it would involve my brother and cousins (boys) as well.The boys usually are there to ruin the things that we have collected.At home,in the garden,we would gather grass,flowers and little berry like fruits.If we were at my grandparent's house,then it would be more fun cos there are actual fruits and more types of flowers.These will be our 'ingredients'.Using little colourful,plastic cooking utensils,we would chop up those things,'grate' them to produce juice (i remember plucking little guavas,grating them and got green paste),squeezing flowers in the water to get the colours out and 'cook' them in our pot or pan into imaginary food.

But now,as i grow,my little utensils have grown too.No longer are they plastic and colourful.No longer are those ingredients plucked from the garden.No longer are they imaginary food.

Study life have brought my sister and me to KL,to see the world and learn to be more independent.And one of the things that we had to do is cook.Our used-to-be a game now is a reality.It started off with a small rice cooker and a water boiler.With that,we cooked rice and instant noodles (that's for sure) and noodle soup,(fried and boiled) egg sandwiches,baked beans,steamed veg

etables,french toast...

But we were not satisfied as there are many things that can't be done with the rice cooker and also it takes a long time to cook a meal.So,we extended our little kitchen corner by getting a pot and also a portable stove.With these two,we are now able to practically cook anything we want.The meal that tasted the best out of our kitchen was the nasi lemak.I invited a friend over for dinner and my sister and him took second helping though there wasn't enough sambal and fried chicken left.He even asked us to cook it again.That's a real compliment especially for my sister and me who don't really cook when we are at home.

These are a few photos of my little kitchen,the process of cooking and also the end results.

Hoping to try out more new recipes and impress my parents when we are back at home =) (But have to remember to spend some time to study too cos cooking won't help me pass my exams and coming to KL is to study,not learn how to cook)

Double dose of failure

Yesterday was a really horrible day,the worst day in my study life.Hate it yet i expected it.Just didn't know that it will become a reality.Why oh why...??

ACCA should seriously do something about their website or IT system.I opted to receive my results via email and that didn't come till today.So,i was sitting in front of my laptop for almost 7 hours (from the time i started to prepare lunch,had lunch till after dinner) clicking on the reload button and keep trying 'new' ways to access the site.

The exam results..like i said,somewhat i expected it though deep inside me,i was still hoping for a tiny miracle to happen.But when i asked myself,which paper should it be (not wanting to be greedy so was just hoping for one) i could not even decide.Both the papers i felt that i didn't do well.Maybe,that's why miracle didn't happen and therefore the..

DOUBLE dose of FAILURE

I hope that after this i will regain my motivation to study for maybe find a new drive to work harder because previously it has been almost nil momentum and concentration.Wishing that this semester will be a better one and that everything will go smoothly,starting from the decision about my classes).

2 hours to go

I have 2 more hours before i know my results for the exam i took in December.I don't feel as nervous as previously but i also don't have that much confidence in myself to believe that i will pass.So,will just sit here and wait for the time to come,check it,see how i did and plan what papers i should be taking.Hope that i PASS the TWO papers..

*Keeping my fingers crossed*

PS: My blog is a little dead these days cos I have to use and share the broadband with my sister.It has limited usage and the line is not that stable.